It's been a long long time

So this is my horoscope for today:

"Give everything your full effort and attention, or else it will only come back to bite you. What you need are thorough solutions to the problems that arise today. Putting bandages on something that requires open-heart surgery won't save you any time. Today, any dramas that pop up should be fairly insignificant, although annoying. Take this turmoil seriously. If you ignore it, it'll just keep coming back to drive you crazy."

Let's just meditate on that for a while.

There's plenty I could vent about but I'm not about to turn this into my livejournal circa 8th grade.

In fact right now things are pretty good despite some recent challenges and frustrations.

I graduate in 1 month and a few days. Although it's frightening as all hell - don't have a job lined up, don't even know where I'll be 2 mos from now - I'm optimistic. Which I suppose is saying something if you knew me about a year ago. Right now I'm content in living and doing things that matter to me. Surrounding myself with those I love and those who love me.

Sure this may be the cheesiest thing ever but I think the best thing I've got going for me is feeling. I think some people think I'm too intense... but it's who I am. There's a lot of good and bad in there. I'm not incredibly skilled in much else. But I like where I'm at now.

I want to revisit music. Also, really digging Shanghai Restoration Project and the whole Afterquake project. Check it.

So I can't really put into words why exactly I feel so connected to this Sichuan Relief Mission. Maybe it's my sensitivity and sappiness. Maybe it's something to do with my struggles to verbally communicate with the people we've met. Maybe in the end I know that all that matters is being there for somebody. I don't know, this does it no justice.

I believe it is possible to be ok and survive as a good person. I think you can be a good person in this industry. It may be a little hard in this city, but I think it's possible. Ask me again in 2 months and we'll see :)